|Um, yes this is so me....|
I generally am ok with my quirkyness...quirkiness... quirk-i-ness... whatever! It's part of what makes me, me... What kills me is that I am also a people pleaser.. so I fight with being my quirky self, or being reserved... trying to fit into whatever everyone else thinks I ought to be....
I learned in counseling that personality wise I am a camel monkey.... HA! Yes, I totally laughed out loud at her, and started singing 'camel monkey camel monkey... riding on a pig camel monkey'... yeah, you woulda had to be there... We start going thru my personality profile, and let me just say it was like SPOT ON.... the being in constant fights with myself, the getting mad at myself for doing something, or not doing something, the stubborness... all of it... Then the blow to end all... after tellin me 'Oh! You're so lucky! You have a completely balanced personality!' (YAY!) then comes the BUT (why, oh why does there ALWAYS seem to be a 'but'????) 'You're going to have a harder time wading thru these personality issues because camels don't like monkeys'... meaning people with camel personalities typically don't like monkey personalities... Really??! Great! How exactly am I supposed to handle that??????
|well... maybe sometimes...|